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Every year around this time I have a soul-searching-come-to-Jesus moment where I evaluate where I am, who I am, goals, dreams, hopes, fears, disappointments, truimphs. I don't know what it is about this season but I am so emotional, fragile and contemplative....maybe, like the rain soaked earth and sprouting crocus buds, I too am anticipating spring. Growth, renewal, and change.
These past few months have weighed heavy on my heart. Most of you know about my dad having cancer for the second time. I am going to visit him next week and love on him as much as I can. Though he is doing well and a fighter of all fighters I can't help but remind myself that these days are fleeting and I must take every advantage I have to love on the people who have shaped me and loved me so unconditionally. I don't do that enough but I should.
Im also making some changes around here, as you have already noticed. I want this blog to reflect where I am in life. I want it to be a little disheveled because that is how I feel....as if God is unraveling me like a skein of yarn to reveal something new, something He has been slowly pulling out of me. I've been wanting to make this place peaceful and calm and over this last year I only made it busy and un-original. My hope is that this little morsel of my life is a place where I can be honest and humbly narrate what's on my heart. My desire is to encourage and inspire and just "be". For those of you who are thinking Seattle has finally brought out my inner hippie, rest assured I am no hippie (though I do love a good pair of "birks").....just a young woman who is finding her place in this big ol' world...
"Therefore, I will allure her, and bring her into the wilderness, and speak tenderly to her. I will give her her vineyards and make the valley a door of hope." Hosea 2:14-15
"A broken and contrite heart, oh Lord, you shall recieve..." Psalm 51:17
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Sweet Caitlin, this is beautiful to hear and I identify so much with what you are saying. Your posts have been original and helpful to me already and I look forward to reading them as God is calling you to be more vulnerable here and show more sides to the complex, precious woman he created you to be.
Caitlin, I truly admire the purpose in all that you do. Thank you so much for sharing from your heart about your winter's journey. I am praying for your family and I wish for you safe travels and days filled with joy and heart to heart connections as you spend time with friends and family. Love and hugs, Lynn
Lovely! The website, the post, your heart. Lovely. :)
He is always Faithful and True.
This was the first post i received having just the other day joined your blog. I didn't know what to expect, beautiful pictures and stories about food... But what I read today is SO beautiful and unexpected... Tears roll down my face as your words fill my head with raw, humble, and authentic truth... Your truth,and I all of a sudden feel totally connected to you on a spiritual level... I love what you are doing and I thank you for sharing it with me. You are a gift to your readers. I will pray for you and your father and please know that all will be well.You are Loved!
what a beautiful, beautiful blog/post/photo/attitude/perspective. i love everything about the new look.
I'm so sorry to hear about what you are going through with your father. I just lost my brother in law on Thursday to terminal cancer. I couldn't go home to North Carolina to be with them-but my heart is there. Take good care of yourself-you are remembering what is most important in this life-to hold on dearly to the ones we love.
The crocuses and daffodils will be here before you know it.:)
I'm completely in love with your blog. This might be quite possibly the most beautiful website I've ever found...the photography, the food, everything. And trust me, you have inspired this little blogger even only after a few read throughs.
Caitlin, thank you for being honest, vulnerable and just be yourself. I admire the fire in your belly for renewed purpose and growth, that'w what makes life worth to live for. I'm much older than you (49) however I can totally relate and be inspired. By the way, you are an inspired writer, I'm sure words will be part of your mark on this world!
What an ABSOLUTELY beautiful new design. You are very talented, C!
i hope you travel safely, have many chances to love your dad generously, and enjoy every minute of ya'lls time together back home.
Oh my heart is so full after reading everyone's encouraging words. Most of you I don't even know yet you have touched my heart and I can not thank you enough for taking the time to write a note. I am with my dad now and I already see the Lord's hand at work! thank you for your prayers, support and love!